sunshine mistress

Starry Sky

2012-02-13T04:17:00.025+07:00

For those of you who are confused to choose 1 between 12 (or 13, to be exact) boys, here ! let me give you some suggestions

1. Homare Kanakubo -Taurus- (Summer)

Don't be fooled by his weird (or.. ambiguous) look. I used to hate this guy, even trying to avoid his route. but in the end.. HE IS MY NO.1 OTP FTW !!!. Since I don't want to spoil you, his descriptions ends here. He is a 3rd year student.

2. Azusa Kinose -Sagittarius- (Summer)

I used to avoid him too (coz his official art/whatever it is) is weird.. like a girl. but, but.. he's fvcking adorable, and I love him. seriously, love. I'm having a hard time on my no.1, actually.. I'm thinking of putting Azusa to no.1 but.. still, Homare. I think my love for both of them are equal. But, story-wise, Homare FTW. He is a 1st year student.

3. Hayato Aozora -Virgo- (Winter)

Here it comes, flamboyant type. Yeah, I really like flamboyant guys. You know, guys who are beautiful, smooth, yet strong (not gay or 'melambai'). A bit angsty though, but desireable~ He is a 2nd year student.

4. Iku Mizushima -Gemini- (Autumn)

Okay, calm. Most of people will hate him for what he will do to you (and I won't tell~ :p). But, kick the asshole-thing aside, he is actually sweet. I played Kotarou's route first, but fell in love w/ this guy. I'm serious, most of people will put him on no.12/11/10 out of 12. But me-not ! He is a teacher at Seigetsu Gakuen.

5. Kotarou Hoshizuki -Libra- (Autumn)

Yes ! another flamboyant guy. The difference w/ Hayato is that he's calm, composed, and cool. While Hayato is a bit yandere, calm, but still socializing. His route is by far, the most depressing one (for me). He is a teacher at Seigetsu Gakuen.

6. Naoshi Haruki -Leo- (Autumn)

First, don't be surprised there's three Autumn guys in a row. To me, Autumn is the most enjoyable series. Both face-and-plot. This guy is also one of my type, SPORTY. He is also cuddly, sweet, and bashful. Can't believe he is a teacher :3 He is a teacher at Seigetsu Gakuen.

7. Suzuya Tohzuki -Cancer- (Spring)

Finally, spring character. I'm sorry to tell you that spring is the most... boring series. Suzuya is my type of perfect husband : caring, can cook (to be exact, will cook for you), smart, can fight, family guy, handsome. Yeah, I wonder why I he is not included in top 5, anyway ! He is a 2nd year student.

8. Ryunosuke Miyaji -Scorpio- (Summer)

I finished his route first in Summer, but ends up w/ loving Homare and Azusa lol. It's not that I don't like him. He is cute ! But, Homare and Azusa is way too powerful for him to beat (poor you, Ryunosuke). But he has one of the best looking guy in this game. I feel in love with his short-sleeve uniform and archery team (he's great w/ hakama :3) look in this game~ He is a 2nd year student.

9. Kazuki Shiranui -Aries- (Winter)

Yay ! my zodiac !! Okay, the reason as to why I'm putting him on no.9 is mostly coz I haven't finished his route yet (oops). But since I'm observing him from Hayato's route, I can say he's adorable, protecting, and fun. Yeah, I like guys who loves to joke. Kinda pissed with guys who doesn't like jokes. I mean, joking is my 2nd language, y'know ? He is a 3rd year student.

10. Kanata Nanami -Pisces- (Spring)

This guy is... bully-able, feelings-wise. I love him coz he's the delinquent type, but the truth is far from it. He has one of the best style in casual outfits. I fell in love immediately after seeing him in short-sleeve uniform, winter casual, and summer casual. Aaaah, marry me, Kanata~ He is a 2nd year student.

11. Tsubasa Amaha -Aquarius- (Winter)

Ugh, it's so painful putting this guy to no.11 ! I like him, coz he's so cuddly. The only thing I don't like is the way he talks, and maybe.. his voice actor (ooopppsss !). He is unbelieveable tall, which makes him a big cuddly bear :3 Has a mysterious side too, even I let my guard down and... nope, no spoiler ! He is a 1st year student

12. Yoh Tomoe -Capricorn- (Spring)

He is the prince type. You know ? the one who speak half japanese-half english/french. Yes, he's exactly my

type too. But unfortunately, I dislik-- ehem, I HATE HIS VOICE ACTOR. seriously... change it to someone else, I beg you ! Story-wise, a bit... nah, it's all up to you :) He is a 2nd year student.

Unranked. Shiki Kagurazaka -Ophiucus- (After Winter)

He is the 13th zodiac, Ophiucus. After Winter will be on sale on April 2012. After april, I will absolutely write about him. For now... just wait :)

Ok ! That's done, if you have some questions please ask me via comments.

Picture(s) from Starry Sky Artbook.

don't mind this ^^

2012-02-11T20:47:00.003+07:00

my love

2012-02-01T15:25:00.004+07:00

don't mind this

2011-10-15T08:52:00.000+07:00

On the Way to a Smile - CoT

2011-08-20T16:12:00.002+07:00

"What's wrong ?"

"You're smiling,"

"I am ?"

"Yeah..."

"It all starts now, a new... a new life. I'm gonna live... I think, that's the only way I can be forgiven. We've been through... a lot,"

"Yeah..."

"But, when I think about how many times I've thought about how I was going to start a new life, it's funny,"

"Why ?"

"Because I've always felt to do it,"

"That's not funny,"

"After this, I think I'll be okay. Because... I have you this time,"

"You've always had me,"

"What I mean is... kinda different,"

the black mages

2011-07-29T14:02:00.003+07:00

an album by a band which has NOBUO UEMATSU in it !

(final fantasy soundtracks)

as for the track list... maybe later :)

----> download here <----

FeMC, MShe, Hamuko, Minako

2011-07-27T22:10:00.002+07:00

*SPOILER* I just realized it would suck for ALL of the possible love candidates for the FeMC to fall in love with her.

Aki: lost his sister, lost (or almost lost) his best friend, girlfriend dies in his arms

Shinji: finally gets out of the hospital after spending months in intensive care, and she dies 10 seconds after they reunite

Ken: Lost his mom, lost his first love

Ryoji: just SAD all over

Theo: spends the rest of eternity trying to figure out how to save her.

-Youtube comments

agreed. but that's what makes it interesting

2011-07-10T06:35:00.004+07:00

what's good about friendship ?

they will comfort me when I'm crying (or not LOL)

they will always be at my side when I have a problem

when I make a mistake, they will not yell at me.. instead, they correct me with their own way

I can laugh as hard as I want, and not caring about how weird I am

I can tease them and they won't feel angry for it

I can tell them a secret without worrying they will tell it to another soul

for all I know, I am so blessed.. I have 8 girls beside me

they're my best.friend.ever

selamat merinding

2011-06-20T20:04:00.004+07:00

futility/the wreck of the titan

sedikit review :

novel tentang kejadian titanic. TAPI, DIBUAT 14 TAHUN SEBELUM KEJADIAN TITANIC. which is, horor. ngga percaya ? silahkan klik ini :

--> wikipedia <--

blissfullee

2011-06-08T07:10:00.005+07:00

it feels so good to achieve what you want yourself

oh yeah, would you click this ? (best site for downloading game ost)

--> KHDownloads <--

blogger's bio

2011-05-11T20:02:00.007+07:00

Full name :

Aisyah Fitrianita Safitri

Nickname :

Ai, Ay, Aisyah

DOB :

March 26th, 1993

POB :

Jakarta

Age :

Sex :

Female

Religion :

Moslem

Nationality :

Indonesian

Occupation :

Student

Hobby :

Art, cartoon, music, dance, & game

Height/weight :

5'1''/About 49 kilograms

Other websites :

cottonface.tumblr.com//aifseiei.deviantart.com

Family status :

Legitimate child, 2nd daughter out of 3

Hair/eye color :

Dark brunette/Dark brown

Fave color :

Pink & Black

Sport :

Cheerleading & martial arts

Fave artist :

Shoji Meguro & others (too lazy to write)

Fave food :

Sweet & salty stuff

Education :

Al-azhar primary school & junior high, 21 senior high, London School of Public Relations

Hand :

Right-handed

ancol baycity

2011-05-09T08:46:00.002+07:00

if only all 9 of us were here

(look at that handsome siberian husky)

if I could have a nosebleed

2011-05-03T21:02:00.000+07:00

2011-04-30T21:11:00.003+07:00

remember this post where I was trying so hard to figure out the different-colored eyes ?? NOT ANYMOOOORREEE, coz ! I've finally revealed the eyes. and it is..

dum dum dum....

ALEKSANDER'S EYES ! (seikon no qwaser)

for a little review, it is a weird skanky manga. but since I don't care (and also curious since alek's my type) I kept reading it and caught myself in love with the main (normal) pairing

for those who haven't read this, this is the answers :

1. arrow tattoo : avatar the legend of aang

2. mask : bleach

3. black note : death note

4. metal arm : full metal alchemist

5. brown sling bag : pokemon

6. sword : inuyasha

7. watch on left hand : ben10

8. face & bod : spongebob squarepants

9. cloth/suit : miles edgeworth (ace attorney series)

10. blue headband sling-ed : naruto

11. smiley with a bloodstain : watchmen

12. skull hairclip : gurren lagann

13. blond spiky hair : ff7

(STILL) unknown item

1. pink ribbon : ...p/minky momo ? nah, just my feeling

(found this pic from kaskus.us)

shoji meguro time !

2011-04-24T11:41:00.005+07:00

artist :

SHOJI MEGURO, yumi kawamura, tetsuya kobayashi, lotus juice, shuhei kita, hirata shihoko, mayumi fujita

yesss ! I finally got thisssss if you're a persona fan (and I'm a die-hard shoji meguro fan) you SHOULD OH SO VERY SHOULD I OBLIGE YOU TO DOWNLOAD THISSSS

of course, I would give you the link again !! :)

---> (download link) <---

track list :

1. Battle for Everyone's Souls (Persona 3)

2. Burn My Dread (Persona 3)

3. Mass Destruction (Persona 3)

4. Soul Phrase (Persona 3 Portable)

5. Mist (Persona 4)

6. Heaven (Persona 4)

7. Time (Persona 3 Portable)

8. Soul Drive (Persona Trinity Soul)

9. Breakin' Through (Persona Trinity Soul)

10. Reach Out to the Truth (Persona 4)

11. Kimi no Kioku (Persona 3)

12. Party for Everyone's Soul [Velvet Room Remix] (Persona 3&4)

masterpiece fantasies

2011-04-05T21:20:00.003+07:00

another masterpiece album

and there's nobuo uematsu & yasunori mitsuda ! you can download it, coz I'm sharing it :3

----> (download link) <----

please enjoy !

eighteen !

2011-03-27T16:36:00.004+07:00

yesterday I'm officially 18 ! whoa, what an age.. I feel like old already :9

just want to share you the cake and present my boyfriend gave to me. and also ! my photoshoot with my beloved vbc ! enjoy~

(the present, meeeow :3)

and here's the cake !

composers

2011-03-22T20:54:00.002+07:00

most of my favorite composers won the best composers vote such as : (numbers indicates their ranks)

1) Nobuo Uematsu

final fantasy series

2) Yasunori Mitsuda

chrono cross

5) Motoi Sakuraba

tales series, valkyrie profile

7) Yoko Shimomura

kingdom hearts, legend of mana

9) Shoji Meguro

persona series, trauma center series, megaten

You'll love them, I promise

dramatic drammatica

2011-03-21T17:48:00.001+07:00

let your ears and heart synchronized for once, and let your tears pours in a good way. what true talents and senses could give you, maxed out in this album

2011-03-09T19:30:00.001+07:00

(tumblr)

screenshots wannabe

2011-03-06T17:15:00.000+07:00

how do you like that ?? :)

TWDHIML

2011-03-05T21:56:00.000+07:00

got a pretty big fight today, but we're still together :)

love them both

2011-03-05T00:04:00.001+07:00

up : ann ward (cycle 15 winner) down : krista (cycle 14 winner)

isn't it obvious ??

2011-03-02T19:30:00.002+07:00

isn't it obvious ? I'd never betray Aisyah Fitrianita Safitri

no fantasy is ever final

2011-03-02T04:47:00.001+07:00

GUE. HARUS. BELI. PS3. LIKE, NOW.

marchy march

2011-03-01T20:18:00.001+07:00

whose month is it ?? meeeeeeee :)

mellow afternoon

2011-02-28T16:52:00.001+07:00

"That's because being lost with you, is better than being found with anyone else…"

YDEHTHTUT

2011-02-28T01:34:00.004+07:00

hello, it's 1:34AM in the morning and I can't sleep (again). trying to study math though, but failed nonetheless. so, I want to share pictures of .hack//g.u

....what, shika ? I know it's been 3 years, but I couldn't get rid of them from my mind. dunno why, but I got some kind of attraction to this game. even though I have beated this game time to time. nah, back to topic.

because I knew no one would have the time to read this, so I just write what's in my mind. Okay, about the picture.. is what I'm feeling currently. or should I say, what I want to say to every people who don't understand me.

attention, I'm not in galau mood or something. I'm just trying so hard to cope with my surroundings. I've been nice, to every people. but only sooo few who really knew who am I. not that I'm not nice, but true friends accept your inner bad side. friends in my current life is so ------. what we've seen is a surface of a lake, while every swan hide their tired feet underwater (sorry if ya don't understand).

oh, I'm not having problems in the real world ! really, just some random rambling in the middle of the night. maybe because I'm so hungry and listening to mellow song 24/7. so like, ciao

I'm back

2011-02-26T13:02:00.002+07:00

hey, I'm back. coz I found tumblr isn't for blogging, but for sharing pictures, and I'm fond of it LOL. so like, I'm back here to write again. but I think I won't post as much as I used to be, because of the final exam, university tests and all.

but, hey ! I'm back. hope you all glad that I did :)

so, because I don't post for a long time, kinda confused about the function of this blog. but, dang ! leave it be.

first thing I want to share is :

I LOST MY SAVES. what is it ? you know, when you play a game, and you need to save ? YES, I LOST MANY OF IT. SO FVCKIN IRRITATING. AND IT'S KINGDOM HEARTS2, AND .HACK//G.U. not to mention these games are my favorites. IT CONTAINS 150HR WORTH OF PLAYTIME, DANG !!!! I'M SO UNLUCKY.

the second thing is :

I'm in a super extreme hard exam week. not the "real" exam, still try outs. but damn, it's fvckin hard. and I'm kinda glad that I'm improving.

the third thing is :

I'm still going strong with my boyfriend, for more than TWO years ! yeay me.

the fourth thing is :

one of my classmate's father has passed away, I shed tears seeing my friend screams when I visited her. I'm so sorry for you, tika. rest in peace, tika's father.

the fifth, and last thing is :

I love you all :)

2010-11-24T17:26:00.000+07:00

http://downloads.khinsider.com/?u=306279

KHDownloads

treat-time !

2010-11-22T22:07:00.002+07:00

(afirta's)

the fun is almost over

get ready guys. final exam is just around the corner

future

2010-10-31T09:59:00.002+07:00

mama : kakak mau kuliah dimana ?

gue : er... kayaknya arsitek ui deh ma

mama : oh, bagus tuh kak

gue : mah ?

mama : ?

gue : aku boleh ambil fashion design ngga ?

mama : boleh lah kak, terserah kamu mau apa pasti didukung kok

jeger, bumi gonjang ganjing. gue jadi bingung lagi hahahahahha stres stres stres kuadrat

current state of mind

2010-10-25T21:26:00.004+07:00

hello Anugrah Ardani, do you read this ?

the sudden urge to draw

2010-10-24T23:47:00.000+07:00

WYGFW by ~aifseiei on deviant ART

EWIPOEW by ~aifseiei on deviant ART

team korea !

2010-10-20T20:00:00.003+07:00

korea, korea !! XII IPA 2 !! :D

my (clickable) current hobby

2010-10-11T18:20:00.007+07:00

(click to enlarge the pics)

SIMAK, UAN, UMB, hear this... !!

2010-10-04T21:51:00.001+07:00

with my god, Allah SWT too of course

help !

2010-09-18T12:01:00.006+07:00

I'm trying to figure out the items and where they originally come from, so far I knew :

1. arrow tattoo : avatar the legend of aang

2. mask : bleach

3. note : death note (so obvious)

4. metal arm : full metal alchemist

5. brown sling bag : pokemon (another obvious item)

6. sword : inuyasha

7. watch on left hand : ben10

8. face & bod : spongebob squarepants

9. cloth/suit : miles edgeworth (ace attorney series)

10. blue headband : naruto

11. smiley with a bloodstain : watchmen

12. skull hairclip : gurren lagann

13. blond spiky hair : ff7

unknown item

1. pink ribbon : ...p/minky momo ? nah, just my feeling

2. eyeballs : yuna ffx ? wrong color =_=

you know, I sounded like a-hardcore-otaku-from-Indonesia because I scored 13/15. scary me brrrrrrrr

(found this pic from kaskus.us)

vbc (again)

2010-09-15T14:38:00.006+07:00

now you could see the back side of it !

(click the pic to enlarge)

2010-08-25T19:13:00.002+07:00

REST IN PEACE

Sylvester a.k.a Blacky

???? - August 25, 2010

our lovely kitten, who has no parents, and a very short life. may you rest in peace, we love you so much

vbc

2010-08-16T19:07:00.004+07:00

(atas-bawah : vbc gold, vbc blue, vbc white)

maaf ya jelek hehe kangen :')

top three..

2010-08-14T15:04:00.002+07:00

..dream jobs I wanted to do

every women want this..

2010-08-13T15:15:00.002+07:00

...scenes to be happened

today !

2010-08-10T18:05:00.005+07:00

he gave me this today when we were eating our lunch at pizza hut pemuda

the left one is his wallet, right one is mine

(isn't he the sweetest, teehee)

brb ganti dompet :)

you know it's love..

2010-08-09T16:32:00.004+07:00

...when you couldn't let them go from your life

23rd

2010-08-01T21:17:00.003+07:00

selamat 23 bulanan dani, meskipun kita ngerayainnya bentar banget

vent bion cheerleader 2011

2010-07-31T20:58:00.008+07:00

hari ini gue ke ultah temen gue merangkap flyer gue di vbc. it was really fun, but it shocked me when I knew that she was going to move out next semester. then it really hits me, vbc blue already disbanded. well, not disbanded ! but we're retiring.

tadi, pas di perjalanan pulang sama dani tumben tumbenan gue diem (biasanya nyerocos bacot sampe depan rumah gue). seketika semua memori gue sama vbc balik ke kepala. cupunya gue di demo ekskul tahun lalu yang full aja dibantuin kak prayang, gue yang nangis2 pas running sebelum lomba anttic, cipokan sama dini pas baru nyoba flick(gini bukan tulisannya ?), ngewave buat popmie cheerleadance, piala pertama pas ultah gue, sampe ke demo ekskul beberapa minggu lalu.

tiba-tiba gue ngomong sama dani :

"dan, kamu tau ngga kenapa aku sayang sama vbc ?"

dani geleng2

"bukan cheers-nya(eh, tapi gue suka kok sm cheers hehe), tapi persahabatannya,"

dani diem, semoga aja dia denger gue ngomong apa (kan lagi di motor haha)

gue aja bingung kenapa tiba2 gue masuk cheers. kalo lo kenal gue, "hah ? AI IKUT CHEERS ?!". oke, gue emang ga ada bakat cheers, selow. sebelum itu: please people, ganti persepsi tentang betapa eksisnya cheers, kalo emang kita2 mau eksis ngapain juga repot2 ngangkat orang sampe memar2 ?? apa dimata lo cheers itu cuma pamer pantat dan paha ? apa lo tau seberapa beratnya ngangkat DUA orang dibahu lo ? if you don't, just shut yer mouth.

gue sama sekali ngga ngerasa vbc blue udah pensiun. gue sama sekali ngga ngerasa bahwa tampil-yang-snowballnya-nggak-jadi-itu penampilan terakhir kita. ngga kerasa banget. semua cepet banget, kemaren2 gue bilang capek cheers, sekarang gue kangen. ga ada yang bisa gantiin betapa gigihnya vbc blue yang harus tumbuh dibawah bayang2 vbc gold yang super dewa.

tyas, kapten kita tersayang yang gigih & rela ngitung pas kita latian

anin, bu ketua kita yang juga gigih ngebujuk sekolah buat urusan kita

sari, partner base gue yang paling terzalimi se tim karena kebegoannya sendiri

vinka, ketua+kapten bayangan yang hobinya ngelawak & selalu berdarah2 karena jerawatnya pecah pas latian

rei, flyer gue yang penakut tp nekat dan akhirnya bisa berani dan mukanya (kata orang orang) mirip banget sama gue

ine, top flyer kita yang lebih penakut & juga lebih nekat yang suaranya selalu menggelegar se hall gulat senayan

firta, partner base vinka yang juga pernah berdarah2 kalo latian, suka agak ngga nyambung kalo lagi ngga pake kacamata yang rela mobilnya dimasukin 11 orang

ega, flyer gue juga yang sabar gue marah2in tiap latian

icha, back base gue yang moody nya tak tergantikan yang berjuang sama2 gue dan juga rela alphardnya jadi langganan vbc buat nebeng ber11 ke senayan

inez, front kita yang suka kita cengin tapi ketawa2 aja

tania, adek kelas yang gabung ke tim kita yang mulai ikut menjadi jablay karena kita hasut

aan, salah satu vbc boyz, sopir icha yang digosipkan menjalin hubungan dengan top flyer kita (ine) yang sabar mengantar kita kemana2

yuda, juga anggota vbc boyz yang digosipkan menjalin hubungan dengan vinka, yang sabar dizalimi sama anak majikannya(sari) dan juga teman2nya

dan gue.

gimana caranya kita ketemuan lagi kalo bukan cheers ? susah banget. sekarang semua udah punya urusan sendiri. jalan sendiri dan mimpi tersendiri. gue sih doanya mereka semua masuk UI trus kita bikin cheers UI huahahaha ngelawak. gue(bukannya sombong) diajak ikut cheers ke tim buatan pelatih gue yang isinya beberapa orang dari tim yang dia latih. tapi gue ngerasa ganjil, karena mereka bukan vbc. seasik apapun, mereka bukan orang2 yang berjuang dari nol bareng gue. senin ulangan kimia, selasa ulangan pkn, rabu ada ulangan juga. tp pikiran gue sekarang isinya vbc, gatau kenapa.

oke, gue harus ngerjain tugas kesenian nyari musik2 korea, bye...

currently

2010-06-24T19:58:00.002+07:00

maaf ya, ngga update2 lg. skrg gue lg sakit, setelah berbulan2 (alhamdulillah) ngga sakit. jatuhlah saya. kata mama sih flu berat tapi entahlah, I don't really care. so like, doodles peeps.

I'll be missing you, essence

2010-06-10T16:49:00.008+07:00

I'm missing you guys already... :'(

old times

2010-05-24T05:11:00.002+07:00

Looklet - Look: Cruella De Vil

Looklet - User: aybigail (Looks)

2010-05-23T05:46:00.000+07:00

Looklet - User: aybigail (Looks)

soul sisters

2010-05-21T22:50:00.002+07:00

rome wasn't built in a day, we know it

scotish

2010-05-16T20:09:00.005+07:00

I made this, what do u think ???? :3

oh ! I create all of this by myself so.. like, I'm not taking, not even one picture from the internet ! mind you =)

in my room

2010-05-05T23:08:00.005+07:00

A-Z things in my room (max.4), it's pretty hard y'know. try to complete it !

A : aqua, anugrah ardani(oops)

B : bookshelves, bangles, blankets, bags

C : clothes, comics, computer

D : door, drawer, dance mat, dress

E : elmo doll

F : flower, fragrance, frame

G : gundam

H : handphone, hanger, hoodie

I : iPod, id card

J : jackets, jack skellington doll, jeans

K : keyboard

L : lamp, lotions
M : massager, mugs, medicines, merchandises
N : novels, nametags
O : oxygen
P : playstation, pencils, printer, painting
Q : quran
R : rotelli sandals(give up)
S : speaker, sticker, sketches, scanner
T : television, towel cake, trash bin, tooth picks
U : underwears, usb port

V : v-neck tees, vbc costume

W : wallet, wall, wristwatches, watermelon pillow

X : xxxholic comic(give up)

Y : ysl box(give up)

Z : zipper

ne vous connais pas?

2010-04-21T06:05:00.009+07:00

ne vous connais pas? nous voulons que tu sois fier

ne vous connais pas? la vérité finira toujours par découvrir

precious

2010-04-11T18:17:00.005+07:00

have you watched precious ? I have. and oh, I'm not gonna write a review or something, I'm not good at those things =) but all I had to say is YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT

but, I had a little something. can you see mariah carey in the starring ? actually while I'm watching it, I couldn't find her anywhere. so I just googled it and I found this pictures :

it is mariah carey, for heaven's sake ! I could-not-believe-my-eyes that it is mariah !

d-o

2010-04-06T21:40:00.003+07:00

I'm not alone, and I'm not lonely

I'm just sick, sick of everything

I'm sick of trying hard, accepting the unacceptable

weird is that I'm doing it

yes, I'll do it for you

all I had is nothing, everything I've been establishing was all for nothing

no one realize it, not even someone who stand in front of me

yes I am strong, so then you could hurt me badly ?

no, you are wrong

I buried my real face, a face you hate so much

just for your sake, your very own sake

I entrust half of my heart for you

for you to keep it safe, remains unharmed

but, the fate has already written

I can not change it

weird is that I'm doing it

yes, I'll do it for you

check this out

2010-04-04T19:55:00.003+07:00

my favorite, superbbb X'D

reminiscence

2010-03-29T21:38:00.004+07:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button What ever song you land on is your answer for the next questions.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

---------

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
knock 'em up - lily allen

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
one word - elliot yamin

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
london beckoned songs about money written by machines - panic ! at the disco

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
feel so good - jamiroquai

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
lying ~~is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off~~ - panic ! at the disco

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
theme of payon - RO (???????)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
write you a song - plain white T's

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
rehab - amy winehouse

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
phonography - britney spears

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
be with you - beyonce!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
give it 2 me - madonna

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
carry you - jimmy eat world

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
desperate - david archuletta

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
dark messenger - nobuo uematsu

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
SOS - rihanna

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
when the moon's reaching out stars - shoji meguro

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
bang the doldrums - fall out boy

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
this house is a circus - arctic monkeys

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
next year baby - jamie cullum

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
hypnotized - rihanna

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
folkin around - panic ! at the disco

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
still - jennifer lopez

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
you know I'm no good - amy winehouse

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
bee your man - relient k

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
you know how I do - taking back sunday

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
feel good inc - gorillaz

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
voice - saosin

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
together we'll ring in the new year - motion city soundtrack

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
ring the alarm - beyonce

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
reminiscence~classroom trial - sugimori masakazu

sweetest seventeen

2010-03-26T20:37:00.002+07:00

thank god it's friday

thank god it's 26th march

thank god I'm with vbc

thank god I have such good friends

thank god, my sweetest present is our first trophy

thank god, my beloved gave me the most beautiful present

thanks god, for everything =))

thinner

2010-03-14T07:57:00.003+07:00

no, not my body. it's my face

it looks so bone-y right now, it's like a had a bullimic or something like that. my mom told me because I'm on diet. well, hell no I'm on diet ! I've been eating like crazy for 2-3 months ago..

so I remembered my uncle, he said that it's because I over-exhaust myself. *sigh* then I need to eat a bit much non fatty things and do less activity that uses too much energy to return the shape of my face. wish me luck ! and wish me a good health too =))

2010-03-03T21:51:00.001+07:00

if I were a rain goddess... will it rain ? because my eyes is raining right now

illness

2010-03-01T12:16:00.002+07:00

Segala sesuatu mempunyai penyakit ...

Penyakit pembicaraan adalah dusta
Penyakit ilmu adalah lupa
Penyakit ibadah adalah riya
Penyakit kepandaian adalah pembualan
Penyakit keberanian adalah kedurhakaan
Penyakit toleransi adalah kelemahan
Penyakit kecantikan adalah kesombongan
Penyakit kemuliaan leluhur adalah keangkuhan
Penyakit malu adalah kelemahan
Penyakit kemuliaan adalah kesombongan
Penyakit kaya adalah kebakhilan
Penyakit kedermawanan adalah pemborosan
Penyakit ibadah adalah kecongkakan
Penyakit agama adalah hawa nafsu..

(Wasiat Rasulullah kepada Ali bin Abi Thalib)

genes

2010-02-11T16:55:00.003+07:00

di perjalanan pulang barusan, gue ngobrol sama nyokap gue masalah keluarga gue, terutama gen. entah warna kulit, bentuk mata, alis, muka, dsb. akhirnya gue kepikiran buat nanya persilangan keluarga gue.

mostly, I told people that I'm both Manado(north sulawesi) & Padang(west sumatra). that means, I'm a full fledged Indonesian, pure Indonesia. the truth ? FALSE.

my mother told me that her grandmother possess the Iran genes which explains my nose.

she also told me that her grandmother, too possess the china genes which explains my skin (some of my family had the cat's eye, including my mom).

then the last from my mother's side, we had the India genes : my eyes (my eyes isn't cat's eye).

my father's side ? he came from both Manado & west Java. my dad's family is christian, that explains my uncles' & my father's name. but my mom think they had no other genes than that.

so, what am I ? Manadonese ? Padangnese ? Javanese ? Chinese ? or... ?

......but ! I'm Indonesian =)

150 bold things

2010-02-10T16:16:00.003+07:00

(bold the ones you've done) - dari blog nya dinda =)
01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candle light bath with someone ->w/ my sis, when blackout
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten celebration with champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and didn't care who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theatre
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played DVD for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married -> via online =)
73. Been in a movie -> school project
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo temporarry or not
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on a television news program as an "expert"
83. Gotten flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out cold
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane -> via kidzania simulator
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a TV game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on a photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for 30 hours in a 48 hour period
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. States
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed -> soon !
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone
145. Had a booth at a street fair -> around 3rd grade
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ -> I WISH !!!
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

very recent update =)

2010-02-04T20:18:00.005+07:00

our (online) wedding pic

hey guys, long time no see.

akhir2 ini gue maen ro terus sama dani, sekarang gue pacarannya via online game, via directnya di sekolah fufufufufuuf. ohya, just so you know, I'm married with my boyf in ragnarok online (the online game).

hmmm, kok blog2 jd sepi ya ? gue sih emang jarang update dr dulu, tp orang2 kok "ngilang" semua dari dunia blog nya ? hmmm apa udah pindah semua ke formspring/twitter ? who knows. also, last monday is my 17th months anniversary with my boyf~ I'm glad we made it this far hohoho. sebenernya sabtu kemaren gue ada cerita, cuma capek ah nulis sekarang besok aja =)

mr.1 september 2008

2010-01-25T03:29:00.002+07:00

I bought him nadleeh (gundam)

he bought me scarf & stockings

I bought him tshirt

he bought me cherudim (gundam)

I bought him breadtalk bread

he bought me jco donuts

then why do we keep arguing for little things ? I do LY =/

cheerleading is...

2010-01-08T04:57:00.001+07:00

copas dari notes nya icc =)

Cheerleading is a way of life, shared by a chosen few,
It is working as a unit in everything you do

Cheerleading is a rivalry, the competition makes you strong,
It is sharing secrets and tears, learning to get along

Cheerleading is that ongoing drive to be the very best,
It is patience, perseverance, and very little rest

Cheerleading is having poise and charm with every word you say,
It is total dedication twenty-four hours a day

It is always being ready with encouragement and a smile
Cheerleading is your chance to express your individual style

Cheerleading is reaching out to comfort a sister who is sad,
It is defending each other in good times and the bad

Cheerleaders are always there when someone asks,
They treasure the present moment and let go of the past

Cheerleading is a talent to be able to shine on cue
It is hiding the pain and anguish that if only half the people knew

Cheerleaders, after all, are real people that sometimes get down
but when they're in the spotlight, they must never put on a frown

Cheerleaders are actresses always ready to go
That is why it's important for all the world to know

Not every girl can be a cheerleader, it takes a special kind
Cheerleaders are full of life and a little bit out of their mind.

dejavu ?

2010-01-07T20:18:00.004+07:00

I saw kim's new perfume (released on february in US) ad, kinda reminds me of rihanna for 2008 gucci ad, rite ? check it out :

oh no no, I didn't mean anything, I'm a fan of both kim and riri but... can't help but think it's kinda a dejavu uh huh ?

so long, two thousand and nine !

2009-12-31T09:46:00.016+07:00

endlessly

2009-12-23T02:36:00.002+07:00

gue barusan kan nyari lirik endlessly nya muse, trus gue liat comment comment nya :

lulu :

you people just don't get it!!!

why do you bother to analyze songs in the first place...
cant you realize that any song that you hear and find you love is because of your own interpretation of it.

in the end it doesn't really matter if he is singing about love or death, girl or goddess ... it all comes down to the memory that it sparks whenever you hear it...

quit analyzing and start appreciating it for what you believe it means... would you realy accept any other persons take on it anyway????

guillermo :

I think It's about a relationship that ended up the rough way, and can't stop loving even if the other person has moved one, he'll be waiting for the right moment to appear and make things right.
I look forward to that moment as well

anonymous :

Hopelessly, I love this endlessly
Hopelessly, this song 'aint everything
But I won't give it up
I won't let it down
I won't stop listening
Cause the moment never comes.

This song is about love. Not to god, not to a woman, but love itself. If you love love, it won't love you back, but everyone does anyway. No-one will give love up, and no-one will stop loving love.

Endlessly. Because love is endless. You can stop loving one person, but no-one in this world can ever stop loving

rareware :

Sometimes, even though life is tough and love is tougher, when you find that love that your willing to do give your life away for, you never really get the chance to let them know how much you really care. You could give up everything and have a beautiful life with them but never feel like you did enough to express yourself.

you see, you don't have to be a singer, or a poet to create such beautiful sentences. these people, may not be (sorry) famous or something, or literally advanced. as for me -

"you'll never learn how you loved someone until you lost them," ...sad, isn't it ?

T____T

2009-12-19T17:46:00.002+07:00

terima kasih ya Allah, alhamdulillah, subhanallah.

diriku yang suka bolos, ngga pernah belajar, ngga pernah ngerjain pr dan langganan bk ini masih Kau anugerahi rahmatMu, saya mendapat ranking ! thaaaanks a lot god, thanks a lott =)

outstanding

2009-12-16T21:00:00.003+07:00

akhirnya kawan, gue jalan juga sama dani ! biasanya kan gue jalan abis latian cheers, jadi rambut lepek, bau badan, sama muka dekil gitu deh. tapi akhirnya hari ini tidak ! gue super bersih & wangi dari rumah hahaha jarang banget men.

gue bales semua dendam dendam jalan gue sama dani : nonton old dogs, makan di sushi tei, sama beli baju di topshop. mantap deh, dendam gue terbalaskan. tapi bad news nya gue bokek lagi -,- tapi lumayan lah, setidaknya atm gue balik, enak ngapa ngapain tinggal gesek (tadi aja gitu) mihihihihi semoga liburan ini menyenangkan ya allah. oh iya rapot nya juga bagus ya, amin.

SHIMAVARA

2009-12-11T04:04:00.005+07:00

no words to express how I love my shimavara ladies (ngga lady juga sih orang pada liar semua). at long last, FULL TEAM ! the nine of us is finally reunited =))))))

the day started, we decide to meet at shika's house at 11am. but so far 11am is a goner -,- coz shika had something to do at school, I don't go to her house, instead me & fanny went to dana's house. dana's room was a total mess, I seriously can't sleep there =p while waiting for dana taking a bath, I played trauma center on her wii console and I was like,"danaa ! I don't understand how to turn the bone !","dana ! what should I do ?? where's the syringe ?";"danaaa ! please get out of the bathroom and help me !! time is running out !".

geez I must be really annoying LOL. then we went to gdg (the shortest,nearest,cheapest,coziest). at first it was 7 of us, exclude uye & ocha. dana was so busy learning the rubix cube from fanny & ina. we watched the accidental husband and we're like, laughing our ass off. after that we went for BK. there, at last.. ocha arrived, and yes ! we're at long last fcukin time we're full teaaam. we took so many pictures : from dana's camera, fanny's camera, my camera, & dea's webcam. I'm looking forward for our full team photo from dea <333333

you know, we're so sweet. even though we have our own lifes ahead of us, we never turn our back to each other. even though we hardly could see each other, we still feel the same like, "we're gonna meet the next day," this must be what they called "best friends forever" =)

pengakuan

2009-12-05T05:57:00.003+07:00

jadi, gue mau ngaku tentang satu hal : selama ujian blok seminggu ini, gue malsuin kartu ujian gue.

hahahahaha, jadi kartu asli gue kecuci trus ancur jadi bubur nasi, shock parah. tapi berhubung gue pinter & kriminal, gue memutuskan buat ngebikin kartu ujian gue sendiri. hasilnya ini :

namanya juga malsuin, nomer ujian nya aja salah hahaha

mantap ngga ? hhahahaha sampe hari kamis sih ngga ketauan, tapi kemaren pas ulangan pertama kartu gue di cek sama pak ginting depan sama belakangnya. deg deg an abis, tapi dia ngga ngomong apa apa, alhamdulillah hahahahahahha.

ahuahu

2009-12-02T19:09:00.002+07:00

guys, komputer gue di servis. dan the sims gue ludes semua (university, night life, bussiness, holiday, bon voyage, pets, H&M, glam, dll) sedih abis.

tapi kabar baiknya komputer gue skarang canggih, cepet banget ngapa ngapain, ngga lemot lagi kayak dulu. tapi sedih sih, gue main itu dari kelas 6sd, trus beberapa minggu lalu hilang sudah memori selama 5tahun terakhir (melankolis).

btw I'm in exam week, jadi gue males cerita apa apa dan emang ngga ada cerita apa apa juga. I've bought so many things since I posted one before, and so lazy to wrote 'em. but I'm excited since it's december already ! time for holiday, loose up the weight on my shoulders !

but, 6 months already passed on my second year of highschool. another 6 months an I'll be studying like some smartass to get to a good university. dear goood, please make this year a year to remembeeer :(

wherever you are

2009-11-27T20:28:00.003+07:00

come out moon

come out wishing star

come out come out

wherever you are

I'm out here in the dark

all alone and wide awake

come and find me

I'm empty and I'm cold

and my heart's about to break

come and find me

I need you to come here and find me

cause without you I'm totally lost

I've hung a wish on every star

it hasn't done much good so far

I can only dream of you

wherever you are

I'll hear you laugh

I'll see you smile

I'll be with you

just for a while

but when the morning comes

and the sun begins to rise

I will lose you

because it's just a dream

when I open up my eyes

I will lose you

I used to believe in forever

but forever's too good to be true

I've hung a wish on every star

it hasn't done much good so far

I don't know what else to do

except to try to dream of you

and wonder if you're dreaming too

wherever you are

daaaddy

2009-11-23T17:20:00.006+07:00

dapet dari notes nya firman nih (modal copas ekekek) :

biasanya, bagi seorang anak perempuan yang sudah dewasa, yang sedang bekerja diperantauan, yang ikut suaminya merantau di luar kota atau luar negeri, yang sedang bersekolah atau kuliah jauh dari kedua orang tuanya.....

akan sering merasa kangen sekali dengan mamanya.

lalu bagaimana dengan papa?

mungkin karena mama lebih sering menelepon untuk menanyakan keadaanmu setiap hari, tapi tahukah kamu, jika ternyata papa-lah yang mengingatkan mama untuk menelponmu?

mungkin dulu sewaktu kamu kecil, mama-lah yang lebih sering mengajakmu bercerita atau berdongeng, tapi tahukah kamu, bahwa sepulang papa bekerja dan dengan wajah lelah papa selalu menanyakan pada mama tentang kabarmu dan apa yang kau lakukan seharian?

pada saat dirimu masih seorang anak perempuan kecil......
papa biasanya mengajari putri kecilnya naik sepeda.

dan setelah papa mengganggapmu bisa, papa akan melepaskan roda bantu di sepedamu.

kemudian mama bilang : "Jangan dulu Papa, jangan dilepas dulu roda bantunya" ,

mama takut putri manisnya terjatuh lalu terluka....
tapi sadarkah kamu? bahwa papa dengan yakin akan membiarkanmu, menatapmu, dan menjagamu mengayuh sepeda dengan seksama karena dia tahu putri kecilnya PASTI BISA.

pada saat kamu menangis merengek meminta boneka atau mainan yang baru, mama menatapmu iba.

tetapi papa akan mengatakan dengan tegas : "Boleh, kita beli nanti, tapi tidak sekarang". tahukah kamu, papa melakukan itu karena papa tidak ingin kamu menjadi anak yang manja dengan semua tuntutan yang selalu dapat dipenuhi?

saat kamu sakit pilek, papa yang terlalu khawatir sampai kadang sedikit membentak dengan berkata :

"Sudah di bilang! kamu jangan minum air dingin!".

berbeda dengan mama yang memperhatikan dan menasihatimu dengan lembut. ketahuilah, saat itu papa benar-benar mengkhawatirkan keadaanmu.

ketika kamu sudah beranjak remaja....
kamu mulai menuntut pada papa untuk dapat izin keluar malam, dan papa bersikap tegas dan mengatakan: "Tidak boleh!".

tahukah kamu, bahwa papa melakukan itu untuk menjagamu? karena bagi papa, kamu adalah sesuatu yang sangat - sangat luar biasa berharga..

setelah itu kamu marah pada papa, dan masuk ke kamar sambil membanting pintu. dan yang datang mengetok pintu dan membujukmu agar tidak marah adalah mama....

Tahukah kamu, bahwa saat itu Papa memejamkan matanya dan menahan gejolak dalam batinnya, bahwa Papa sangat ingin mengikuti keinginanmu, tapi lagi-lagi dia HARUS menjagamu?

Ketika saat seorang cowok mulai sering menelponmu, atau bahkan datang ke rumah untuk menemuimu, Papa akan memasang wajah paling cool sedunia.... :')

Papa sesekali menguping atau mengintip saat kamu sedang ngobrol berdua di ruang tamu.. Sadarkah kamu, kalau hati Papa merasa cemburu?

Saat kamu mulai lebih dipercaya, dan Papa melonggarkan sedikit peraturan untuk keluar rumah untukmu, kamu akan memaksa untuk melanggar jam malamnya. Maka yang dilakukan Papa adalah duduk di ruang tamu, dan menunggumu pulang dengan hati yang sangat khawatir...

Dan setelah perasaan khawatir itu berlarut - larut. ketika melihat putri kecilnya pulang larut malam hati Papa akan mengeras dan papa memarahimu..
Sadarkah kamu, bahwa ini karena hal yang di sangat ditakuti Papa akan segera datang?

"Bahwa putri kecilnya akan segera pergi meninggalkan Papa"

Setelah lulus SMA, papa akan sedikit memaksamu untuk menjadi seorang Dokter atau Insinyur. Ketahuilah, bahwa seluruh paksaan yang dilakukan Papa itu semata - mata hanya karena memikirkan masa depanmu nanti...

Tapi toh Papa tetap tersenyum dan mendukungmu saat pilihanmu tidak sesuai dengan keinginan Papa

Ketika kamu menjadi gadis dewasa dan kamu harus pergi kuliah dikota lain... papa harus melepasmu di bandara.

Tahukah kamu bahwa badan papa terasa kaku untuk memelukmu? papa hanya tersenyum sambil memberi nasehat ini-itu, dan menyuruhmu untuk berhati-hati.

padahal papa ingin sekali menangis seperti mama dan memelukmu erat-erat.

yang papa lakukan hanya menghapus sedikit air mata di sudut matanya, dan menepuk pundakmu berkata "Jaga dirimu baik-baik ya sayang".

Papa melakukan itu semua agar kamu KUAT...kuat untuk pergi dan menjadi dewasa.

Disaat kamu butuh uang untuk membiayai uang semester dan kehidupanmu, orang pertama yang mengerutkan kening adalah Papa. Papa pasti berusaha keras mencari jalan agar anaknya bisa merasa sama dengan teman-temannya yang lain.

Ketika permintaanmu bukan lagi sekedar meminta boneka baru, dan Papa tahu ia tidak bisa memberikan yang kamu inginkan...

Kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut Papa adalah : "Tidak.... Tidak bisa!"

Padahal dalam batin papa, Ia sangat ingin mengatakan "Iya sayang, nanti Papa belikan untukmu". Tahukah kamu bahwa pada saat itu papa merasa gagal membuat anaknya tersenyum?

Saatnya kamu diwisuda sebagai seorang sarjana. Papa adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan memberi tepuk tangan untukmu.

Papa akan tersenyum dengan bangga dan puas melihat "putri kecilnya yang tidak manja berhasil tumbuh dewasa, dan telah menjadi seseorang". Sampai saat seorang teman Lelakimu datang ke rumah dan meminta izin pada Papa untuk mengambilmu darinya.

Papa akan sangat berhati-hati memberikan izin. Karena Papa tahu...

Bahwa lelaki itulah yang akan menggantikan posisinya nanti.

Dan akhirnya....

saat papa melihatmu duduk di panggung pelaminan bersama seseorang Lelaki yang di anggapnya pantas menggantikannya, Papa pun tersenyum bahagia....

Apakah kamu mengetahui, di hari yang bahagia itu Papa pergi kebelakang panggung sebentar, dan menangis?

Papa menangis karena papa sangat berbahagia, kemudian Papa berdoa. Dalam lirih doanya kepada Tuhan, Papa berkata:

"Ya Allah tugasku telah selesai dengan baik..putri kecilku yang lucu dan kucintai telah menjadi wanita yang cantik, bahagiakanlah ia bersama suaminya..."

Setelah itu Papa hanya bisa menunggu kedatanganmu bersama cucu-cucunya yang sesekali datang untuk menjenguk...

Dengan rambut yang telah dan semakin memutih, dan badan serta lengan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjagamu dari bahaya. Papa telah menyelesaikan tugasnya....

Papa, Ayah, Bapak, atau Abah kita, adalah sosok yang harus selalu terlihat kuat

Bahkan ketika dia tidak kuat untuk tidak menangis... dia harus terlihat tegas bahkan saat dia ingin memanjakanmu.

Dan dia adalah yang orang pertama yang selalu yakin bahwa "KAMU BISA" dalam segala hal.

homewrecker

2009-11-19T16:30:00.006+07:00

I want to have a tiger or a lion so that if someone pissed me off to death, I'll order my pets to eat 'em =/

dani's birthday

2009-11-15T05:52:00.005+07:00

kmaren gue sukses ngerjain dani di ultah nya yg ke 17. gue ceritain yaw :

berawal dari gue dateng ke sekolah jam 9 buat latian. gue heran, kok ngga ada anak vbc ? trus gue pake hape pak kamil buat nelpon tyas dan ternyata ngga ada latian -,- yaudah gue memutuskan buat langsung capcus aja ke fx buat beli kue nya dani. saking defisit nya gue akhir akhir ini, gue minta salah satu ade kelas bernama wawan buat nganterin gue ke busway supaya gue gausah jauh jauh naik angkot (itung itung hemat 1500)

di busway, gue ditelpon dani & dani ngamuk ngamuk :

dani : kamu tau ngga hari ini hari apa ?
gue : sabtu ? (sumpah beneran gue ngga ngeh)
dani : INI HARI ULANG TAUN AKU !

cicicuitcicicuit intinya marah marah trus gue tutup aja telpon nya. skitar 10-15 menit setelah nya demmy nelpon gue, katanya dani ngamuk (banting hape sama marahin wawan ditengah lapangan + nonjok nonjok tembok) gue langsung bingung, dilanjutin apa nggak nih planning ? yaudah gue cuek aja deh terus lanjutin. abis beli 17 cupcake beserta propertinya, gue naek taksi balik ke 21. gue terima sms dari fanny : ay, dani ngamuk. sereem

buset nih orang ngapain aja ? terus gue pinjem hapenya supir taksi & sms dani. gue baru nyadar belakangan kalo hape dani rusak abis dibanting -,- pas gue nyampe, langsung aja deh ke dani. kalo lama lama ntar dia ngebakar sekolah lagi (lebay) begitu nyampe, DANI SPEECHLESS akakakakakakakkakakakakakakakaka. hadiah nya ? jam swatch warna putih yang gue mupeng gila.

special thanks to : padus, demmy, wawan, & chandra dll
*stupid gue lupa foto pas surprise T____T

social interview rocks

2009-11-13T20:51:00.002+07:00

gue iseng buka apps social interview di facebook. trus ada soal kayak gini :

would you slap curly lova baby smooches (pake samaran) if she/he was doing something really stupid ?

ngakak parah gue,

right here, right now

2009-11-11T21:30:00.007+07:00

What am I to do with my life?

(You will find it out don't worry)

How am I supposed to know what's right?

(You just gotta do it your way)

I can't help the way I feel

But my life has been so overprotected

I don't need nobody telling me just what i wanna

What i want, what what I'm gonna

Do about my destiny

I say (no no)

Nobody's tellin me just what i wanna (do do)

I'm so fed up with people telling me to be-e

Someone else but me

britney spears - overprotected

way too long to fall apart

2009-11-08T20:04:00.004+07:00

hey guys, long time ngga posting nih. langsung curhat aja yach (haha)

lately I've been having too much trouble with my bf lately, either big or small, important or not. when he ask,

"is this the end ?"

I just can't bring myself to think about how will I face the day when it's over, then I said,

"no, it is not,"

I know we've only going together for more than a year, but that is big for me. too much memories to be forgotten, too much things that we share that will make us keep remembering each other. but lately we're so hard on each other, we can't accept things just like the beginning of our story. we keep shouting each other, spouting, blabbering, but we're too afraid to say 'goodbye'.

every story must have an ending, and I am too afraid to accept the truth. but here I am, I'm still with him.

women

2009-11-05T18:38:00.002+07:00

Suatu ketika, ada seorang anak laki-laki yang bertanya kepada ibunya. “Ibu, mengapa Ibu menangis?”
Ibunya menjawab, “Sebab, Ibu adalah seorang wanita, Nak”.
“Aku tak mengerti” kata si anak lagi.
Ibunya hanya tersenyum dan memeluknya erat. “Nak, kamu memang tak akan pernah mengerti….”

Kemudian, anak itu bertanya pada ayahnya. “Ayah, mengapa Ibu menangis? Sepertinya Ibu menangis tanpa ada sebab yang jelas?”
Sang ayah menjawab, “Semua wanita memang menangis tanpa ada alasan”.
Hanya itu jawaban yang bisa diberikan ayahnya.

Lama kemudian, si anak itu tumbuh menjadi remaja dan tetap bertanya-tanya, mengapa wanita menangis.
Pada suatu malam, ia bermimpi dan bertanya kepada Tuhan.”Ya Tuhan, mengapa wanita mudah sekali menangis?”
Dalam mimpinya, Tuhan menjawab,”Saat Kuciptakan wanita, Aku membuatnya menjadi sangat utama. Kuciptakan bahunya, agar mampu menahan seluruh beban dunia dan isinya, walaupun juga, bahu itu harus cukup nyaman dan lembut untuk menahan kepala bayi yang sedang tertidur.
Kuberikan wanita kekuatan untuk dapat melahirkan, dan mengeluarkan bayi dari rahimnya, walau, seringkali pula, ia kerap berulangkali menerima cerca dari anaknya itu.
Kuberikan keperkasaan, yang akan membuatnya tetap bertahan, pantang menyerah, saat semua orang sudah putus asa.

Pada wanita, Kuberikan kesabaran, untuk merawat keluarganya, walau letih, walau sakit, walau lelah, tanpa berkeluh kesah.
Kuberikan wanita, perasaan peka dan kasih sayang, untuk mencintai semua anaknya, dalam kondisi apapun, dan dalam situasi apapun. Walau, tak jarang anak-anaknya itu melukai perasaannya, melukai hatinya.

Perasaan ini pula yang akan memberikan kehangatan pada bayi-bayi yang terkantuk menahan lelap. Sentuhan inilah yang akan memberikan kenyamanan saat didekap dengan lembut olehnya.
Kuberikan wanita kekuatan untuk membimbing suaminya, melalui masa-masa sulit, dan menjadi pelindung baginya. Sebab, bukankah tulang rusuklah yang melindungi setiap hati dan jantung agar tak terkoyak?

Kuberikan kepadanya kebijaksanaan, dan kemampuan untuk memberikan pengertian dan menyadarkan, bahwa suami yang baik adalah yang tak pernah melukai istrinya. Walau, seringkali pula, kebijaksanaan itu akan menguji setiap kesetiaan yang diberikan kepada suami, agar tetap berdiri, sejajar, saling melengkapi, dan saling menyayangi.
Dan, akhirnya, Kuberikan ia air mata agar dapat mencurahkan perasaannya. Inilah yang khusus Kuberikan kepada wanita, agar dapat digunakan kapanpun ia inginkan. Hanya inilah kelemahan yang dimiliki wanita, walaupun sebenarnya, air mata ini adalah air mata kehidupan”.

vbc

2009-10-31T01:14:00.004+07:00

v, maaf ya hari ini gue nangis terus. yah you know why lah kenapa.. tapi bukan berarti gue ngga mau tampil. mungkin gue emang udah ngga kuat tadi, semoga lo semua ngga jengkel sama gue :( sampe sampe dihukum pula tadi ato mungkin gue kebanyakan ngeluh ato negative thinking. I love you vbc blue 2011 ! ayo kita berjuang hari ini =')) (btw gue ada cerita tentang kejadian tadi tapi ngga enak ah)

2009-10-29T19:19:00.003+07:00

silahkan klik gambarnya

gue shock banget pas liat ini (yang gue lingkarin). sumpah gue kira bani, kok bani religious viewnya ???????? ehem, jadi gue lupa kalo gue lagi buka fb nya coke. gue yang aneh apa.... ??????

2009-10-28T21:19:00.001+07:00

silence you lost me no chance for one more day

akhh

2009-10-26T00:54:00.005+07:00

what kind of grading standard mana khemia 2 use ???? I worked so hard to synthesize that crap, brainstorming any ideas until midnight and all I get is C ? I've been getting 2 straight Bs I don't wanna this C gets my grade even worse ! I want an A ! I should've taken another class, shhhhhhtttttt

2009-10-23T22:02:00.000+07:00

gue baru aja ngeliat semua foto ncc 2009, jadi semangat latian deh hahahaha

malboro

2009-10-23T05:16:00.003+07:00

who the hell design this stupid piece of shit ? I mean, it keeps killing my character in omega island ! just before I face the real boss -__- I've seen it since ffvii, but.. the most annoying one of this kind is in ffx.

btw hari ini gue mau nonton anak saman di 68. doain menang yaa !

2009-10-22T10:50:00.006+07:00

what would you do when you don't know what to do ?

btw, gue mau curhat. kan minggu kmaren gue ke bandung soalnya kakak gue mau dibeliin laptop lagi. apa ? lagi. udah gitu dell warna ungu pula. zzzzzzz kakak gue udah 2x dibeliin laptop masa gue minta nds aja ngga boleh ? aaaaaaaaaargh dunia ini tidak adil sobat, udah 1taun terakhir gue ngga minta elektronik tapi ngga dikasih juga. alesannya udah ada bb, padahal gue minta aja ngga. aaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkhh

ffx

2009-10-22T03:18:00.006+07:00

this is not gay, it's father-son

oke, gue tau gue telat 8taun, tapi gue baru mainin ini game beberapa hari lalu dan baru aja gue tamatin sekitar semenit lalu. awalnya sih kakak gue yang namatin duluan pas jaman gue smp, jadi pas gue liat event event nya biasa aja, ngga ngerti malahan. eh pas gue mainin sendiri, gue malah nangis nangis ngeliatnya. ada event jecht sama tidus dikit, mata gue berair, pas ngelawan jecht terakhir banjir sudah. susah deh kalo cerita udah bawa bawa orangtua sama anaknya. zzzz btw gue belom tidur nih dari kmaren hoahm, tidur dulu yah bye~

bfffft

2009-10-21T03:21:00.008+07:00

kmaren keanya gue lagi sial deh, vinka anin rei pasti tau knapa. jadi pas pulang sekolah anin ngajak ke sma 3 buat ngumpulin persyaratan buat kita lomba. setelah memohon minta dianter sana sini akhirnya kita capcus dianterin icha & berhasil ngerebut 10rb dari tangan coke. pas disana, mulai hari sial gue.

gue masuk ke sekolahnya tuh, ngelewatin anak anak nya terus ke ruang osis nya. setelah beberapa waktu gue baru nyadar kalo cantelan rok gue kebuka. omg gue langsung shock trus ngakak sama vinka, "jadi pas tadi ngelewatin cowok cowok rok lo kebuka dong ai ?" baru kepikiran sama gue.

trus pacarnya rei kan sekolah di 3, tapi teganya dia malah pulang, padahal rei udah creambath gitu ckckckckckck. udah gitu pulangnya kan gue ke toni jack's sama anin & vinka mau beli es krim, pas udah beli eh es krim gue jatoh -_____- dan vinka sama anin ngetawain gue hzzzzz. argh, gue laper.

mk2

2009-10-19T17:05:00.004+07:00

kmaren gue beli aksesoris komputer sama game game baru di bec. dan gue dapet yang gue tunggu-tunggu :

guess who's his (Raze) voice actor :

a. liam o'brien

b. yuri lowenthal

c. erin fritzegald

d. m shadows

hzzzzz btw kmaren gue beli headphone warna turqoise sama mouse warna hot pink, whiccch I love 'em so much =) ohya, hari ini gue ngga masuk sekolah, padahal gue lagi diawasin sama guru bk gue gara gara kebanyakan absen. -______- btw doain vbc ya, soalnya sebulan ini mau ikut banyak lomba <33333

endrancekuhnhaseo

2009-10-07T23:05:00.005+07:00

left to right : liam o'brien, johnny yong bosch, yuri lowenthal

my top three voice actors, they just knew how to impress me with their voice acting. I even watched naruto USA version just to hear their voices.

wishlist

2009-10-05T16:47:00.004+07:00

1. health for my entire family & friends

2. good grades

3. vbc blue '11 rocks

4. saman '11 rocks

5. watch grey's anatomy season 6

6. macbook, psp, nds

7. guccis, lvs, ysls, versaces, chanels, dvfs

8. 40kg (don't laugh, don't smirk, don't gimme that look)

9. blahniks, choos, louboutins

10. o2jam (master v3, bride in dream, milk chocolate, etc)

11. izzy/izzie shoes

12. smooth hair

13. architecht, designer

14. traveling

15. whatever I want to do that had nothing to do with you =p

16. as smart as phineas & ferb

17. had my own fashion line

18. had my own professional photoshoots

19. nice cheap earrings, bracelets

20. new dress & clothes

21. boobs (just for this, you can look at me)

returning

2009-10-04T03:46:00.002+07:00

ehem kok gue jadi jarang ngepost ya ? padahal cerita numpuk bejibun gini. ehm, mulai dari mana ya.....

ohya, hamster gue ditinggal di bandung. sial, padahal udah gue sayang sayang kayak anak sendiri (lebay). trus.. ehem kata firta gue putihan. oke, mungkin gue norak ya (emang norak sih) tapi gue seneng banget. kenapa ? soalnya pas liburan kemaren tuh gue keling, alias iteman gara gara latian di sambu siang siang bolong selama masuk puasa.

gue juga baru nyadar kalo absen gue 12. wakh parah dah baru juga 3 bulan masuk udah 12x kali gue ngga masuk sekolah, sampe sampe dipanggil ke bk pula. hayah macam pelajar apa diriku ini -,- gue lagi kangen banget nih sama shimabara, katanya sih hari ini ada kawinan kakak temen gue, tapi gue bingung katanya dani mau ikut, sedangkan dia les.

gue juga menyadari bahwa teman teman gue itu saman&vbc, bukan berarti yang non bukan, tapi paling deket sama mereka laaah. gue seneng deh pernah ketemu mereka, anak nya baik semua =)

o2jamming

2009-10-02T21:04:00.004+07:00

heeeeeey, yesterday I found o2jam emulator (a.k.a offline) on the net, and I'm playing it like crazy.

aaaaaaaaaa kangen deh sama kelas 8, dulu gue sama dana & dea & shika suka jalan kaki ke warnet di deket arion dari alarm, trus pulangnya lewat depan arion. the cycles goes on for more than a half year.... it was really, REALLY fun. how we ended up smell like we smoked some cigars when we returned from the net cafe.

one of you remembered how fun it was ?

EYDR

2009-09-26T06:23:00.002+07:00

wtl happened with my dad........ he became a shopaholic right now and what's worse he didn't share it with me wtlwtlwtl oh, the EYDR is the initial of my dad's name

home

2009-09-22T19:47:00.005+07:00

daddy's which I envy so much

hari ini gue pulang dari bandung tanpa hape dari sabtu kemaren, stupid parah. gabisa sms dani, itu yang jadi masalah. masalahnya : gue ga apal nomer dani yang baru -,- trus hari ini gue ngecek timbangan dan........................... berat gue naik 1kg. shock. bukan, bukan shock gara gara berat badan gue naik, tapi gue shock karena cuma naik 1kg. I mean, namanya lebaran ? 2kg keatas lah nambahnya, namanya juga makan terus. yasudahlah, seharusnya gue bersyukur hahahahahahaha.